And

you know

what that means?

It means

the we are

Responding to

Your Shit

there’s this scratch

horizontally across my nose

a few years ago

i would have felt so stupid

because of that

now i don’t

These little watermelon candies

taste so good

they’re made with something from bones

and that

makes them not nearly as fun

as they were before

I knew that.

Fine today

miserable last night

He’s eating potato curry in that picture

I hate curry

mostly because my neighbor smells like it

that and piss

I don’t think my meds are working.

well,

well well well

this Art exhibit

exhibition

I went to

recently

it was bad

not done well

and I did’t say

anything

The eye guy

he’s the one

with the magic eye

four of ‘em

is what I heard

and he is so—

his soul is so

young and pure

those aren’t the right words

but there aren’t any

I sat with a friend on what I guessed was some kind of secret spot on top of a hill in Central Park. My friend and I met about a year ago at night on a bench in a different, kind of nearby park. Because of the size of this place, I never could have found that spot myself. I’d never been to that part before. He likes it. He smokes there often. The ground up there (maybe everywhere) is that playground soft rubber stuff used so parents believe their kids are not going to fall and break an arm. They cover this rubber stuff up with mulch so everything looks like an untouristed forest. Some of the mulch got knocked out of the way and I could see the rubber. That’s how I learned about the rubber. We played his Bluetooth speakers and talked about everything then got hungry and walked to a museum just because the restaurant is supposed to be good. I only had coffee there before. He ordered almost everything on the menu and wines and coffees. By that point another person from Louisville was sitting with us. When the bill came, my friend said he’d cover it. He wasn’t charged for any of the wine, whiskey or coffee. He left a $90 tip and we left pretty quickly. He moved to Mexico City the next day.

unlike jersey fabric

red duct tape

is not inviting

its smooth texture

is sexual or

too clinical

You’re cute

selling Christmas trees

you look like

an actress from a comedy

one that’s excessive

saccharine

sappy

I like your green felt hat

it matches your trees

i want to know how much they cost—

the trees

but it doesn’t matter

because I don’t have room for one

There is a Japanese Society Uptown (I’m Downtown) that was having a play and a woman I know who has cancer bought two tickets for her and me to this play and I thought it would be fun. We got dinner too. Said I was late because I slipped on ice but I was actually just late and it was snowing so it was a good excuse. I said I went to CVS and bought new tights, they were ripped. They weren’t. I don’t remember the restaurant but it was Uptown too, and the meatballs were the size of marbles and tasted old. I wouldn’t recommend it, whatever it’s called. The theater was nice and the seats were good. It was one play repeated three times and the characters switched roles each time. Two probably would have been enough, only so you could understand the role that was spoken in Japanese. I get it. But it was getting long and I was ready to sleep or leave before the third iteration. We got our coats afterwards and walked together to the train. I didn’t know her apartment was near mine. The train was completely empty. Probably because everyone with a 25 mile radius had drunkenly joined together at this Santa festival thing that happens every year. It’s a quick ride on the train and walking would have taken an hour. I’d go to another play like that.

Gold + grey afghan

It matches the book

that i’m holding

that could seem

very quirky and funny

to some people

but I’m already disinterested

What lathe

will you use

to shape my carcass?

I don’t need any

last rites

or breadth

just take me

off your mind.

Your chapstick in my car

it will probably melt

but not tonight

there’s supposed to be a tornado

I would like

a reprieve

from this

weather

We could be

to Michigan

in 53

minutes

Do you wanna go

No

Oh no

a few more miles

is plenty for me

you say

They define us, you know

That’s what he said

traffic lines

grocery lines

Natural lines like the ones in leaves

even the natural ones are

controlled

like in that one movie

what is it called?

Donnie Darko.